.: Clarification :.

I just want to let everyone know a few things...1. Anything to do with Gid should be said to him not me...and thats outta his mouth. I dont have any control over anything he does and i never will, I am not his mother and im not about to start telling him what he should and shouldnt do!
2. If you wanna come to me with something your pissed about, please get all your facts straight before accusing.
3. I am done with this situation and all the stupid problems unstable people cause, leave me outta your business and we will be happy!
4. Good night and have a wonderful day <3

.: Uh Ya :.

yaaaaa well i imd the person who all this dumb stuff is about and low and behold she did not answer and logged rite outta msn...ugh i am giving up, i will deal with the fact that i am losing a friend over her stupidity and i will just go back to minding my business which I LOOOOOVE! Tonight was fun...no stress and no drama, unless you count Gid hittin on a boy...which i will not go into lol! <3 Ohh and Vas cheating on me...i did tell them both, cuz they were mean, I would blog it and i kept my word bitches! <333

ALOT of people IMd me bout all this and everyones got pretty much the same opinion, so im not going insane! So im gonna leave it at that, everyone I wanted to read it did, so im done on this matter! But Good Luck to who ever wants to get involved in her shit because i know she wont change and i think that makes me saddest :( *plays emo music*

My kiddo starts school in the morning and I think im a lil more excited than she is, so i thought I would share that exciting news with everyone! Now I am off to bed goonite! <3

.: Editied :.

I removed some of the last blog because I realized that it was sorta childish but I think i got my point across...I wrote that yesterday when i was way pissed off, now dont get me wrong, im still really upset and mad but a lil more sensible today. The people who i wanted to see it did and so im happy.

I know theres alot of people who think i have no feelings or no conscience or any thing like that, and thats fine, but i do. I let things get to me and last night after i talked to some people, i was REALLY upset, because everyone always expects me to be the one to apologize and make nice and I dont think I should. In this situation, I did nothing wrong other than disagree with a friend and tell her that the guy shes in love with is a loser...something thats shes been doing to me for awhile! Did I ever do this to her when she would come to me and bad mouth my bf...NO, I actually defended her to him, saying she was trying to do what she thought was right, boy was I wrong! I would like to know why it always has to be me that has to make everything ok with everyone, and im sick of the excuse that people give me that Im smarter or that Im a better person than that...I dont wanna be anymore because everytime I do, it comes back and bites me on the ass...ok ugh im done rambling bout this AGAIN! <3

.: Round and Round We Go :.

Well its been 2 months since i did this and i actually forgot my log in name and stuff but its all good now! I havent been blogging lots cuz of some stuff but i feel the need to do this one cuz for some reason, people still look on here.

First off let me just say that this is gonna be a little harsh and some people couldnt really give a shit if I died of some really awful disease, so if your one of these people, beat it and dont bother coming back cuz I dont care anymore. I know Ive made a ton of mistakes lately and ive apologized to who i need too, but everyone else that thinks they have a say in what i do, well you can fuck rite off, and now on to the fun stuff...

Lets start off with some stuff thats been going on for a lil while now. I have listened and listened to everyone under the sun tell me how bad a certain someone is for me and while you all have your opinions, some people took "helping me see" to a whole other level. For months i have told this person to not say anything to them and not to start anything because they were just trying to be my friend...right?!...WRONG! So for that i apologize I should never have told you to leave all these winey emo fuckheads alone <3

Now for the shit that has gone on for the last few days, We have tried hard to stay outta everyones buisness and just not get involved...well yesterday, our names were brought up for no reason, in a situation that has absolutly nothing to do with us, but someone couldnt resist badmouthing the person I was just talking about...I know very confusing but please try to stay with me! Im not naming names in this because Im not an asshole like that, but if you wanna know, IM me. Well this "friend" of mine who thought it was and obviously still thinks its ok to bad mouth the person who is prolly closer to me than anyone and when i didnt like what she had to say and told her that the guy shes in love with is a total liar and a scum and stuff...she decided to take it apon herself to send a friend a notecard that of course she would take outta context. So let me just let you all know whats REALLY happening and not some made up lies outta some emo bitches head...

DRAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMAAAAAAA

I cant escape it no matter where I go, ugh I am fighting with people and people are fighting with me! I swear there is a full moon in sl lately. The thing is I wish people would mind their business on what really doesnt pertain to them! People always think they know whats best for you and they dont! UGH! Then ugh I jus dont wanna talk anymore, Im tired, frustrated, irritated, sad and everything else, but oh well!

ok thats it good nite

Dick in a Box

ok I have been tryin to add the Dick in a Box thingy to here but I cannot, i am a blog spaz! I dont understand how to work shit on here but oh well...I will rant I suppose!

SL is SL and full of jus fun DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA! I have jus been tryin to keep to myself and stuff but it follows me around everywhere...I miss the days when I first started when loggin in used to be fun, now its jus full of emotional stuff and ugh jus problems lately...its makin me a bit emo, very VERY close friends of mine kno bout it and I think they are gettin sick of me spazin but I have been told that its gonna be ok, so I gotta believe that! I need a vacation which I think I am goin on with my brother in January which I think will be fun, but i need a sl break but I cant doooo it! A ton of us are goin to play wow I think, but that can be nuts too since I am usually getting yelled at for shit cuz I dont listen! Well I kno i havent bitched alot on here but Im sleepy tonight and gotta get up early and do the same stuff over again, so goonite and <333

25 Questions

okies I stole this from my friend on Myspace but for some unknown reason my myspace is bein weird so here this is

1) Have you ever snuck into a movie w/o paying? yes

2) What TV show or movie do you secretly love? The L Word.

3) Have you ever had a one night stand? ugh yes but it was my decision!

4) Are your parents still married? No

5) Do you own any porn/sex toys? YES!!!

6) Who are you closest to in your family?My brother

7) What is the one food you hate more then anything?? Seafood

8) Think back to high school.....Who was your favorite band/singer? I dont really remember high school but prolly Tool

9) What is you favorite quote? Your Momma

10) Have you ever met someone famous? yes I live in Vegas, everyones famous

11) Whose your favorite artist? Andy Warhol

12) Have you ever given money to a bum? yes

13) What's your favorite kind of dancing?(salsa, waltz, line, slow) dirty?

14) Soda or Pop? Soda or Tonic

15) One movie you want to see but just haven't gotten around to it yet.? Fearless, i got it on sl but I havent watched it

16) Favorite food as a kid? Raw hotdogs

17) Are you often accused of having your mind in the gutter? umm all the time

18) Have you ever pretended to know what someone was talking about eventhough you had no idea? ya all the time >.<

19) Have you ever waved or said hi to a person cuz you thought you knew them? I do it all the time

20) Do cell phones or kids being loud in a theater annoy you? no im used to it bein loud

21) What Disney character is most like you? Cinderella :P

22) What is the most irratating thing some idiot can do when driving?Drive

23) Which of your friends is the one who you can dare to do anything? and they'll do it..Holly cuz she does everything

24) Who is your favorite Greek god/goddess? I dunno them

25) Who is the first person you call/IM if you have a bad day? Holls! cuz shes my bish :P

Woah I suck

ok holy jeezuz I suck lately with this but now things are back to normal with my rl...well sorta...but im sorta back on here, not like anyone cares lol! Im kidding I kno I am loved! ok so anyways...



I am stuck for pressies on sl for some people, I got some christmas pressies for some, some are getting rl gifts and they kno who they are and know that they are comin after Christmas. For some reason it doesnt seem like christmas but it is, and omg its so cold in the desert goo figure! Im freezing my ass off but I can stand for some to fall off so Im good!



ok sl stuff...ummm not a ton goin on really, jus same old stuff and same old people. I dont make new friends often there cuz, as one jus proved, can be weird and creepy...some kno who I am talkin bout! I pretty much hang around with the same group, we never really leave my house unless its to shop or to rawk out down at the block, which I kno one day I will be kicked out :P I show my penis way too much down there lolol! I also got some sorta weird thingy goin on in sl rite now that I dont really wanna air out here so its makin me sorta cranky one minute and happy the next, so hopefully soon Ill be able to figure out what the hell Im doin, before I make Seio insane! For those who dont kno, Seio is like my best friend on there! NO NOT MY BOYFRIEND as some think!

Other than that, there really isnt much to say!! Ohhhh Vas bought me the hawtest boots eva, thank you thank you thank you <333 and if I can figure out how to put pics and stuff on here then I would show everyone...ok I kno this was a long one, so if you made it thro all of this then you get a A+ nite nite <33333333333

Im soooooo sick!

errr for the past 3 days I have had the flu, Ive been throwing up for 3 days straight and Im getting sick of it!! I dont kno how bulemics do it cuz my throat is hurting now and i feel like hell! I did however lose 9 lbs but its making my face look sickly!

Well I dont really have much to say bout sl cuz I havent been on much, due to the fact I cant sit in the same place for more than 10 without getting sick! I cant believe Christmas is coming up and I still havent gone shopping cuz of all the stuffs goin on in my rl! I gotta suck it up and go this weekend or im in lots of trouble. So on that note Im gonna go cuz i feel the need to run to that bathroom...byeeee <3

Crushes and stuffs

i was having an interesting conversation with my friend in sl bout having crushes on people and if most of the crushes we had would go anywhere. To me when you have a crush on someone, they tend to go away, when they dont, well then, they really arent crushes anymore. My friend has had a crush on this one boy for a long time and I kept tryin to tell her that it wasnt a crush anymore but moreso a like or *gasps* love sorta thing. I mean I wont lie I have like 2 crushes on 2 boys and I kno that it wont go anywhere and I dont think I would want it too...to me they are harmless and you get over them and thats it, I swear in a week I go thro like 10 boys Im crushin on, lol I kno thats alot but its true! Ugh Im tired and really have nothing to talk bout so I chose this...and no I kno people are gonna try to guess who they are and you wont!

umm same shit is still goin on in rl so at the moment I hate rl so Id rather not talk bout it, but I <3 you guys and I will see most of you tomorrow! <333

TOYS TOYS TOYS

ok on Miss Willows blog there was a heated discussion about toys from when all of us 20 somethings were little and it got me thinking about toys I used to play with and soo miss. Well since my mom is here I asked her bout toys I used to play with and it made me laugh...the first one she said is I used to play with some Michael Jackson doll from like the Beat It days which made me cringe. Then my mom said I used to love my Glow worm and my puffalump. I wish I still had that now! Jay and I one night also discussed the My Buddy and Kid sister dolls which I had both, and we cannot forget the Speak and Spell, omg the thing always sounded like it was gonna die!

I figured I would metion that cuz well I really havent been on sl a ton but when I am im having fun, we have been playing with swords and all sorts of stuff, so sl is getting fun to me again. Sl seems to get really boring at time and tons of fun at others! I dunno Im sorta on the fence bout sl lately maybe cuz its just not the same anymore, I remember where i used to be excited to play and stuff, now it just seems like I go on to really talk to people and thats it. Sl for me, when I first started, was usually trying to find the next fun thing to do, but I think I have done it all and it sorta bugs me out. Ugh I dont kno, ok Im goin to bed before this turns emo lol <333

Sleep

ugh i keep falling asleep before I do these...umm nothing really has been goin on in sl cuz well i really havent had time to be on...rl is sucking up my sl time DAMN RL! I did however have a few mins and got to hang out with some friends. We bought these rawkin ninja swords and then proceeded to kill each other for the rest of the night. It was fun, mindless entertainment.

Rl is shitty at the moment and for those of you that know me, well know that my grandfather is passing, they give him about another week to live! ya I kno its sad but hes been ill for sometime and its jus that time. so I appreciate everyone bein so supportive of me the past few days and I love you guys for that <3

And how could I forget, I broke my ass the otha night...now lemme explain this. I figured I would chase my 5 year old nephew around a parking garage, well the lil shit can run so fast, well as I was chasing him my pants started to fall, and well I tried to wiggle them up but it didnt work and I fell on my ass...but heres the worst part...I sorta bounced >.<
my sister and them will never let me live that down...ok i gotta jet i will try to remember to do this tonight! <333

AHHH MY MOM IS COMING

ugh my mom is coming tomorrow from Boston and ugh we dont get along good, so alas I will be jumping off a bridge in the future...but Vegas doesnt have any bridges...can you figure out how im gonna do it?

WAHOOOOOOOOOOOO!

and a Hooo! to you too...I have had such a shitty day but omg I am having a blast on sl atm...we have made my house into like a lightsaber battleground and we are kickin the shit outta each otha! I <3 my sl friends cuz they all really come thro when Im feelin like shit! I do <3 each and everyone of them and I wouldnt trade them for anything. I needed some random fun tonight so they decided on this and its like 2am and I swore I was goin to bed early but fuck it, Im laughin my ass off! I kno lots of them read this and I jus wanted to let everyone know I <3 you guys.

MY MIC IS BROKE!

Ok so I went to leave a message for someone on their blog thing and I was talkin and talkin and ugh I go to play it back and I hear nothing >.<...so I try again and UGH nothing...that should be a sign no one wants to hear me.

I really didnt have a good day ( jeezuz Im not having many happy ones lately) some of my friends know that I got some shit goin on in rl, my grandfather is dying and today they sorta confirmed that, so it sucked..and Brian my roomate, well his uncle died today as well and he was really close with him so ugh not a good day! It started off good, had a shitty middle, and a good ending...everyone in sl was trying to cheer me up tonight and I would post pics on here if I knew how but alas Ima tard and I jus sent them over to snapzilla. I do <3 my friends when they behave :P anyways, I am off to bed since I have a meeting in the morning with stuffs to do with me grandpa <3333333

.: No Title :.

:P Umm lets see...whats goin on in sl, well lots but nothing I can discuss on here. My close friends are havin issues and I jus want them to know I love them to pieces ( they know who they are )! I was blog bouncing today and realized I wanna steal the music thingy off Willows blog ( yes she knows I am a dirty rotten thief, I steal things from her myspace all the time <3) I am jus rambling cuz I realize I need to do this early before Im about to pass out!

Today was an alright day, im havin a huge family problem in rl that Im dealin with and its takin up alot of my time, a friend of mine who I talk to all the time tells me I neva am around anymore but trust me I would love to be! Oh and I realized more people than I think read this stupid blog cuz a bunch of people commented to me on sl bout the relationship thing that was from last night...dont know why they didnt do it on here but anyway, I wanted to make one thing clear, I didnt write that for anyone in particular, it was a conversation I had with my best friend and I thought I would share and see if anyone agrees with us! Someone actually sent me a notecard in sl saying that I shouldnt put stuff like that on here cuz people think its directed at a specific person...well I am here to tell you ITS NOT! I dont air out peoples business on here cuz I try to stay outta peoples shit cuz its not my place, I dont even like giving advice, but I am always here to listen! ok I dont wanna put anyone to sleep with how boring this is so Im off to play zuma and to go to bed! <333

Relationships - pros and cons

My best friend in the whole wide world Holly was over my house today babysitting off and on all day for me and one of the times I was home we sat down and had a long talk bout why people feel the need to be in a relationship weather it be good or bad and why people are afraid to be single...the reason this came up is Holly jus broke up with her girlfriend and her girlfriend is really having a hard time letting go as on the other hand Holly is really excited and looking forward to being single again. We came up with a whole list of both and i was wondering if people agree with us, if you can come up with some please let me know and Ill add em to the list...

Pros of being in a relationship:
1. You arent alone
2. Sense of security (unless you have an ass for a partner)
3. not having to date again
4. SEX ALL THE TIME ( if youre not married :P)
5. being in love with someone other than yourself
6. having someone love you
thats jus some

Pros of being single:
1. You can date
2. not having to worry bout breaking someones heart
3. You can do whateva you want and not worry bout another person
4. More time for friends
5. having a first kiss with someone else
6. not crying all the time because he/she broke your heart
7. not being paranoid that your ass partner is doing something he/she isnt
8. learning you dont need someone else to define you

Those are jus a few! We had tons more but I dont feel like typing them all out lol nite nite <33333333

ummm

well I dont have much to say tonight, umm I had a boring day sorta...umm i have totally come outta my emo mood which is good, umm nothing really goin on in sl that my close friends dont know bout, umm i need to go shopping for the party this weekend cuz my ass has got so huge I cannot contain it anymore!

Actually I can talk bout sl a lil...I have been thinkin I need a lil break, as most of my friends know I have 2 avies I play..one bein Kallie Boxer who is the oldest and now I got Beautiful Sin...why do you have 2, you wanna know...I will tell ya! Kallie has like iunno like 300 friends on her list, I talk to like 5 people a day, but every so often i get one of them as a stalker sorts and I jus dont like dealing with it...Beautiful on the otha hand only has like 20 people on her list and its only people I wanna hang out with on a regular basis and its quiet, but lots of people still know the both of em but I tend to be on Sin more and more! ok I dont know why I jus went into that but now you kno! Oh but gettin back to the break...I think its jus drama filled and ummm i dunno really what else, sorta like high school drama and its getting old, but anyone who knows me knows I have an addiction to the computer and cannot stay off so ya im jus talkin out my ass cuz Im bored and I <3 uuuuuuuuuuuuu

Ok heres another one!

I dont really know what to write in this one but like I said I am "forced" to do this everyday so here is goes...I am bored I think, with SL and with RL...I went out last night and ya I had fun but jeezuz Im hung ova today and my lil 4 year old crazy is soooooo tired from sleepin ova nana's and stuff, but I needed to go out so ya it was ok! Next weekend I get to go out with Vici for her birthday and Im way so excited...to the point where I got a babysitter like a month early...i kno, Im lame!

ok now for sl...I kno Im repeating what everyone else says, there is sooo much drama, I feel like Im back in high school with all the shit talkin and doin it behind peoples back. Anyone who knows me in sl or rl knows that that is one of my biggest irritations, if you gotta say somethin bout someone do it to their face! I found out some of my friends like to talk shit bout me but oh well I cant do anything bout it so oh well, ok before this turns into a emo rant, Ima go <3333 byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Promises...err...sorta

Ok I promised Dag that if he fixed my blog (which isnt done) that I would write in it everyday, well at least for awhile. Well i have had such a baaaaaaaaad week ugh, i have been way emo bout shit that i dont need to be come to find out, then my pipe under my sink broke and ugh then my lil midget flooded my kitchen last night and UGH i wanna freak out...but then the killer of my day, i turn on my ipod and zomg...RICKY FRIGGIN MARTIN was on, please for the love of god dont ask me how the hell ricky martin was on there! I wanted to cut myself >.<

Anywho, todays my kiddos b-day and shes in the bath so Im bored and figured I would write my lil thingy that no one reads and I cant blame em! So hopefully soon I will have a cute blog if dag stops runnin around nekkid and help me figure out how to get all sorts or cute lil things on here...<3333